Saturday, May 22, 2010

Questioning My own beliefs

It has come to my attention that from hearing Bishop Salvatore speak in so many different videos(I've watched the one about NOM from youtube, the one about kids from...I'm forgetting that website now..but I saw that one). I am beginning to question my own beliefs....before in a post I noticed that I said I was against Prop 8 which I was at that time...which I have been for most of the time.

However I have recently started to question my own beliefs, and I am beginning to see Bishop Salvatore's ideas of thinking when it comes to the matter of marriage. His excellency Bishop Salvatore is not adamnantly criticizing gay marriage. However he is stating that kids will be affected.

I can see this point of view because the "usual" representation of marriage is having both a mother and a father. Not two mothers or two fathers, as well we must question how people find each other when in a relationship. Since of course we know biologically speaking that males don't usually like males and females don't like females.



"Opposites attract.....likes repel"



That is a good quote to me at least that gay marriage, or rather same sex relationships hold no standing biologically speaking. Since in biology they even use that quote "opposites attract, likes repel." Biology follows religion in that area and agrees with religion.

Perhaps it is because of a psychological reason that there are many who find themselves in a same-sex relationship.



Monday, May 17, 2010

May 14, 2010 Oridination mass of Fr. Ian Mendoza

Friday Night, we made our way to the cathedral. My mom and I stopped by and picked up my aunt on our way. We went because my mom had to sing in the choir yet again for the Oakland cathedral. That cathedral the Cathedral of Light is so beautiful inside, I still do not understand how the image of Jesus pixelated in the front made such a huge controversy. Personally I like the fact that the cathedral has that image. I like that image because it is not your usual image of Jesus suffering. Besides, the cathedral still has their own main crucifix, so what more do people want? Do they want to see a life size image of Jesus on the cross instead of him giving everyone the sign of peace? Now honestly, that would be terrible! The picture of Jesus is fine the way it is.

Anyways continuing on with what the mass was about, the mass was the oridination of Ian Mendoza. Now Father Ian Mendoza, it was interesting for my mom and I having never seen an ordination mass before. The way he laid down prostrate in front of the altar, that was really moving to see. As well as the fact that near the end both Bishop Salvatore and Bishop Cummins recieved Fr. Ian Mendoza's first blessing, that was something! That was very powerful seeing that because how many times does one get to see both of the bishops recieve a first blessing by a priest? I bet if he remembers one thing it would be that he gave both bishops his first blessing.

The downside was that after mass there was a reception. Both my mom and I wanted to go, my aunt and I waited until my mom was finished changing since she had to pull off those great looking cathedral choir robes. While she was switching to her regular clothes, my aunt and I had to go to the restroom. So we went to the other side, my aunt I could tell was tired afterwards. So, in the end we did not go to the reception, we just left and went back home. Although, this is the rest of what happened, my encounter with Bishop Salvatore :) before we left: my aunt hurried back to wait for my mom, I was following hurriedly, although I paused when I saw Bishop Salvatore, he was saying hi to all the other priests before he entered the reception. I shook Bishop Salvatore's hand saying "Hi Bishop Salvatore." I figured why not say "hi" since he is the Bishop after all and he was behind me. He caught my eyes and my eyes met his.

I felt very reverent and humbled to be that close to the Bishop. It is something to acknowledge the fact that the Bishop is like a celebrity in the Religious world. Bishop Salvatore plays it off nicely. He does not act arrogant or rude in any way, he simply is just himself. I never quite understand the way I end up feeling so reverent or humbled whenever I meet these religious figures such as Bishops. Although perhaps it is because I still have that gnawing in the back of my head that tells me I should be a nun...that I have a higher purpose, one that I have not yet fulfilled. Although one that I have not said yes too.

Perhaps it is because I feel like I can escape it for a good while. Although I find as much as I do try to pull away, that gnawing is in the back of my mind constantly to become a nun. Who knows? Maybe I will, maybe I won't.

All I know is, the ordination mass was one I will never forget in my mind. The ordination mass and the chrism mass. The chrism mass is another such mass I will never forget that I still have really good memories of and really good memories of the Bishop himself.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Bishop Salvatore Cordileone

I know Bishop Salvatore Joseph Cordileone has been repeatedly criticized for starting Proposition 8 regarding gay marriages. However I truly believe that Bishop Salvatore does not adamnantly criticize people of gay or lesbian marriages. He does not go out of his way to point them out. Yes, it is something I am not for, I must say I'm against Proposition 8, although you must question before accusing anyone. Bishop Salvatore is a human just like all of us, and he is strictly Catholic...of course all Bishops are pretty much all strict Catholics. So it does make sense for him to have started Proposition 8. In order to try to make a win for the church...which indeed happened. However much the Catholic church does contradict itself much like the government. I will or and would not turn away from being a Catholic, though I am not like the Bishops and some others an insanely strict Catholic. We must ask ourselves in times like these which ways are better...to be a strict observer and not allow any freedom or to be open to all things...